Hold on with fingers or feelings?

I will carry this around with me. Warming me or comforting me or keeping me sane. I will take it along with me till the day I give myself, wholly and truly. It will come to mind the day I "give my heart" to someone. I Will smile at the thought of it, at my wedding altar. I Will suppress a giggle in the pew at your wedding mass. I will taste it over and over again, turning it over and over in my mouth, until I can no longer taste at all. I will carry it around with me.

Oh righteous one.

If That what you believe is true,
then on judgment day,
when I'm standing on a different side of the line from you,
will you look over, think of the way I used to be,
or on judgment day,
Please, won't you vouch for me?